thinlizzy

It’s proven to be a challenging day. It started off with the Ex coming early this morning to pick up the kids to take them to breakfast before school. This really was a test of will for me. I’m still angry about this past weekend when he bailed on them again. And usually when I’m angry at him, I crave my fatten breakfast taco, choc. donuts and a large dp.  I struggled with myself for about 10 minutes telling myself at first that I could make up for the binge by being good the rest for the day. But at least I won and forgot to drive down that road (literally). The rest of the day has been hit and miss but I’m not going to dwell on the misses because they are over and done with and I must refocus for tomorrow. Planning is what I have to do to stay on top of the game.

 I’m going to start training with Corinna 3xs a week. I can’t wait. This should get me better focused on the nutritution part of my life.

 I can’t believe I’m making cakes for the office. They smell sooooo good. I probably should have just bought them from the grocery store and then they won’t be so yummy smelling. Oh, but I prefer homemade cakes for my birthday, so I’m sure David will appreciate them. Imust remain strong or at least have a great workout and salad for lunch.

The beginning of the year is always slow for me, only because my birthday lies on the 2nd. Everyone is so busy with the holidays that by the time we get around to celebrating everyone’s birthday, it’s usually over about mid-January. I must admit that I am controlling myself with all my other snacking to make up for all the birthday cakes. This truly is a BIG step for me. I can actually say that I am proud of myself. WOW!

I’m having a such an awesome time in the gym with my personal trainer that I wish I could spend all day IN the gym working out. Scary.  I wish I could afford her everyday but 2x a week is pretty good. I’m gonna try to work on my finances so that I can have her work with me 3x a week. Even though I feel like I’m whining the entire time I’m there, I feel mentally and physically soooo much better about myself. I definitely feel the money is well spend ($25/1 hr lession is a great deal).

 My meals are coming along slowly but I’m taking baby steps. Not too much carbs and more veggies (or at least V-8, it counts). Let’s hope I can make good choices this weekend. The week structure seems to work better for me but I’ll try really hard this weekend to remain true to commitment of healthy living.

Ok, everyone good night.

Today’s my birthday, my last day of indulgence. I always start the New Year on the 3rd of January. I have to make sure that I get all the birthday cakes and candies out of the way (priorities). I wouldn’t want to offend anyone. Ha! Ha!

Ok, but seriously! Tomorrow it’s hit the gym with my great friend Corinna (personal trainer) but what is most important, at least for me, watch what I put in my mouth. I have to get rid of all the birthday and Christmas candy. Sugar is my weakness. It has a way of staying on my mind 24/7, I wish I could obsess about veggies like I obsess about sugar.

I also have to find time to meditate, I know it sounds strange but I find that the positive mediations have been slowly creeping up on me. Which is a great thing. I find that when people ask “How are you doing” my reply is “Wonderful” or “Awesome” no matter what my situation is. Which reminds me that things could be a lot worse, so be grateful for the wonderful things that are in your life.

Wish everyone a great New Year and best of luck on your all resolutions.

 Steady and consistent!!!

 Lov Ya

Liz

I find myself  turning 42 years old and weighting 225 lbs. I am recently divorced with 2 young children. Life has gotten simplier while at the same time very complicated. It’s hard trying to juggle work, kids, and trying to maintain your own preservation. I have beat this evil demon before only to have lost the battle one more time. It is frustrating and humiliating. I know I’m a strong woman, living with an alcoholic has proven that to me. Even though the alcoholic is out of my life, I still continue to give me power over me and the choices I make. I let his bad days become my bad days, just like we were still married. SICK!

 For some reason I think I’m afraid to loss the weight because I know that he’ll only be more attractived to me. I deserve to me healthy for me and my kids.

 Ok, I guess this is my intro. Hope to hear from you.